Rediscovering Tina

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Rediscovering Sabbath June 30, 2013

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I’ve done something that is completely foreign to me and I’m still struggling with it, even though I know I need to do it and God wants me to do it. It’s a done deal. I’m not backing out. I’ve just never done this kind of thing before, so everything inside of me is warring and fighting and struggling.

What could I possibly have done now? I asked for a month off from part of my ministry responsibilities. In the midst of that month I plan to schedule vacation time from work. I’ve never taken time for me and time for me and God and time for me and Steve. There is always something else going on and demanding my time and energy and brain power.

I was made painfully aware of my workaholic/ministryaholic tendencies by one much younger than me who mentioned quite innocently a few months ago, “Mrs. Tina, why do you work so much?” I stumbled over and mumbled an answer, but that question has haunted me ever since. Seriously… why DO I think I have to be working on something 18 hours a day? Be it my full-time job with InterVarsity, my part-time job collecting accident reports for a local attorney, cake decorating, studying/teaching Sunday school, planning/leading worship, mowing the grass, cleaning the house, studying for a sermon, counseling one of my kids, cleaning out a drawer, planning, organizing, blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah.

Notice what isn’t on that list: Personal bible study. Personal worship. Prayer. Quality time with Steve. Me time.

Other things I’d like on that list: Reading for pleasure, not just ministry; breaking out the new easel and chalk sitting in my closet that I bought after camp; sitting in the sun doing nothing; taking a real vacation with my beautiful husband.

I’m on a mission for the month of July to rediscover sabbath.

Maybe that should be Discovering sabbath. You can’t RE-discover something until you’ve found it for the first time!

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Why Arkansas, Tina? February 10, 2012

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I’ve asked this same question, dear friends. After the events of the past five years and all the crap that has fallen in my pockets, I had determined that the state of Arkansas had ceased to be a part of the  Union. I could see God moving us back to Oklahoma or how about we try Indiana for a while? Never once did I consider the possibility of moving to the-state-that-must-not-be-named. Seriously, God? Why not just throw me into a cauldron of boiling oil while some evil piranha from hell eat me alive? 

Yet, as I’ve grown to expect from God, He never sends me to the Land of Easy. Someone once said that they love being around me because they know God is close to me. I didn’t want to burst her bubble by reminding her that God is close to the brokenhearted and sometimes I’d prefer He pick on someone else for a while! Yes, God is close because I am ususally clinging to him for dear life!

These past five have not been any different. Pornography, prison and personal loss have surrounded me and beat me to a pulp and thrust me into a pit of despair do deep and so dark that I began to wonder if God was real for the first time in my life. Yet, here I am. Trusting, believing, and counting it all joy, knowing that the God of the universe is molding me and moving me to the next phase of ministry.

What does that look like? At this point, only God knows. I know it will involve ministry to those caught in the devestation that pornography and sex addiction inflicts on men and families and churches. I know it will involve prison ministry in some shape or form. I know it will involve our whole commitment to the things of God and the ways of God. And I know that it will happen in the-state-that-must-not-be-named.

If I’m going to be here for a while, I guess I should get used to saying the name and allowing the state back into the Union. Afterall, it already feels like home.

Arkansas. Let’s turn what the enemy intended for evil into something glorious for Jesus!

 

 
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