Rediscovering Tina

There is life outside the pulpit

I Paid You for That? February 25, 2011

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I’ve had a sore throat for seven days. The kind of sore throat with swollen glands that cause your ears to hurt. I feel like I’m walking and talking in a tunnel. Now I’m talking like a frog and hacking like a chain smoker.

I hate going to the urgent care  or the doctor even when I feel like crap because the doctors there always seem to dismiss whatever is going on. For instance, my right hip popped five times one winter while I was mowing the snow. Five very loud, painful pops. For a week afterward that hip hurt walking, sitting, lying, walking up stairs, whenever. When I went to the urgent care to have it looked at, the doctor stood in the door as I told her why I was there. Her response? “Why are you here? Just wait it out”. Then she walked out the door!

That is just one example of what has become common place for me. Have a migraine? Wait it out. Have a sinus infection? wait it out. Have a missing limb… you get my point.

So against my better judgment of just waiting out the sore throat, and at the insistance of my husband and the girls I work with, I went to the doctor on day five. Of course, my doctor was at another clinic, so I had to see one of the PA’s. She immediately ran a strep test that came back negative. 

Guess what I get to do?

Wait. It. Out.

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Look! A Squirrel! February 19, 2011

Filed under: Family Discoveries,Post a Day — Rediscovering Tina @ 8:30 pm

Hubby and I were sitting in Denney’s this morning waiting on breakfast. I was attempting to talk to him, answer a text from my sister and figure out what we needed from Wal-Mart. I started and stopped what I was trying to say two or three times, then would get distracted again. Finally having enough, Steve said, “Do you think we could have a broadband conversation rather than dial-up?”

Smarty pants!

 

The Most Beautiful Woman in the World February 17, 2011

Filed under: Family Discoveries,Post a Day — Rediscovering Tina @ 8:32 pm
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Today would have been my Mom’s 65th birthday.

Janet Louise Kroft (I have her middle name) was the most beautiful woman in the world. I know every little girl believes that her mother is the most beautiful woman in the world, but in all my 45 years, I still believe this about my Mom.

She grew up in an emotionally abusive home and married a man who promised her a way out. I often asked her if she regretted marrying Bio-Dad since they divorced after five years. She would get teary-eyed and remind me that if she hadn’t married him she wouldn’t have my sister Marie and me, and that was worth everything.

When I was nine she married my Dad. During the worst of his drinking, I watched as she prayed and cried to God to save him. I saw a woman committed to her husband, in easy times and hard times, and a woman who helped lead her husband to God because of her faithfulness not only to God but to my Dad as well. She taught me what it meant to vow “for better or worse”, and she was the example I followed when I had to make a similar decision about my own marriage.

Mom had a sharp wit and a tongue that matched it. If you were on the receiving end of her wit, it meant that she loved you greatly. She used to tell people, “If I ignore you, I don’t like you!” She also had a laugh that sent joy through my heart.

The abuse my Mom experienced growing up could have colored the way she treated her own children. While it left scars that I will never fully understand, she chose to raise her children differently. She was most definitely the authority and expected her children to be respectful and well-behaved. She encouraged us in everything we wanted to try. She cheered the loudest and laughed the loudest and cried the happiest tears for our accomplishments. I was never afraid of her… but absolutely terrified of disappointing her.

The last few years of her life, Mom was struggling with kidney failure, diabetes and congestive heart failure. She was losing her eyesight and had horrible arthritis in her feet. Through all of it, she never complained or felt sorry for herself. She had a quiet strength that hid what was going on with and in her body. She spent time caring for others with her work with Gilead Ministries as their administrative assistant and volunteering with her church.

In 2000, Mom had a quadruple bypass. Before she went into surgery I completely fell apart and felt I was losing her. She held me close and whispered in my ear, “Baby, the promise in the Bible is real. If I live, that’s wonderful, because I get to spend more time with all of you. And if I die, I get to be with Jesus. You see? I can’t lose!”

Two years ago next week, the most beautiful woman in the world became the most beautiful woman in heaven. I personally think Jesus gets the better end of the deal.

Until the day I get to see both of them face-to-face.

Jesus on one side. Mom on the other. I can’t lose!

 

Getting Even February 11, 2011

Filed under: Personal Discoveries,Post a Day — Rediscovering Tina @ 10:43 pm
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“The only people with whom you should try to get even are those who have helped you.” ~ John E. Southard

One of the lessons I’ve had to learn over the past four years has been allowing others to help me. Actually, the first part of the lesson was learning to ask for help from others and then accepting the help that others could give. It seems silly, but it was painful to the point of becoming physically and emotionally ill before I could actually do it.

What’s my problem? Oh, let me count the ways!

One, I am the oldest child (in our home) of an alcoholic. In our family dynamic I took on the role of the savior. It was “my job” to care for my two little sisters while our parents fought over my dad’s drinking. It was “my job” to keep an eye on the fighting to be sure that no one got hurt. It was “my job” to protect my mom. It was “my job” to be sure everyone was doing what needed to be done so that there would be no more fighting or yelling than was already going on. (*Note- “my job” is how I saw things then… no one told me it was my job… but no one told me it wasn’t my job either.*)

Second, I am a preacher. I’m “supposed” to have all the answers and have it all together and not fall apart. I’m “supposed” to give people guidance, not seek it for myself. I’m “supposed” to counsel others, and give them answers and bless them. I even felt like I am”supposed” to defend God by never letting others see me in need, showing them that God had provided everything and I had no needs at all.

Third, I am a people-pleaser. I want people to like me and admire me and love me and think highly of me. I want to make people happy and make them laugh. I want people to want me. *I suddenly have Cheap Trick playing in my head*

Then my whole world fell apart.

*To be continued*

 

Hero Worship

Filed under: Post a Day,Work Discoveries — Rediscovering Tina @ 8:18 am
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Have I mentioned how much I love my job? The InterVarsity staff that serve students and faculty on college campuses amaze me with their faith in God and in others to support their mission. I am so blessed to be a part of their ministry and to give them good news about new donors and unexpected big gifts. To talk to their donors. To read their Facebook updates. To pray for them.

What tickles me the most is when I do something “easy” and they gush about how awesome I am for serving them! All I did was click a button! You are the ones out there teaching students how to study the Bible and praying with people and living on a hope and a prayer! YOU are the awesome ones!

Thank you for serving Jesus, my fellow co-workers. You are my heroes!

 

Lost February 6, 2011

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I had a post.

WordPress ate my post.

I’m taking a nap.

 

Blizzards and Buttercream February 2, 2011

Filed under: Uncategorized — Rediscovering Tina @ 12:39 pm

Thank you InterVarsity Christian Fellowship for closing today! My house is clean, the laundry is caught up and the dishes are finally done because I have an extra eight hours this week!

You wouldn’t think that with two humans and two cats could make such a  mess, but with the plethora of cakes orders this week, everything else has gone by the wayside. I’ve been up until 1am two nights in a row decorating and rolling fondant and making flowers and watching bad George Lopez reruns. I told Steve the other night that it was a good thing I quit pastoring. This has almost become a second job… and I love it!

Steve just left for work (apparently the federal government can still get to work this afternoon) and I have five glorious hours by myself  to make more buttercream for another horse cake like the one above and to play in fondant and make more flowers and some decorations for a Superbowl cake for Steve’s office on Friday.

How are you using your snow day?

 

 
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